"W.H.Y wo de wan mei shi jie hai yi zhi dou bu ken lai..."
That's the song i am listening to at the moment...It was a fun day for me actually but unknowingly...it turn bad after one and a half hours in the internet...
As wad my blogger says...
"We can have different feelings all the time. the difference b/w each feeling is great but to change from one to the other only takes a second as they are things that are difficult to control."
...It's really veri true. Well, i went to watch the lord of the rings- the return of the kings today...pretty late arh? it's really a good show... I got to know how important a home is...I find that peace is so precious...I learn that frenz are precious too...this is truely the best film i ever seen...I get so emotional when watching the movie.Only i did not cry,becoz i have forgotten how to...After crying to much since young i told myself i shall never cry anymore for my entire life. I learn to be strong after crying so much since young.Why i cried? well, my family was quite a biased one...my parents and grandmother(leaving with us) take sides on the sons. My father on my younger brother's side, my grandmother on me elder brother but i have none... onli my mother loves mi a little more. I cried mani times as i was treated quite unfairly at home. My mother could not help mi either cause she was also loather by my father, grandmother and elder brother...Sad to say my family got lots of problems too... onli recently things get a little more calm as my brother is in NS.Erm... dun wanna rack up too much of the past...
Anyway i dun realli feel happy now...I juz lost someone...he's leo...now i think i understand him a little more..but it was too late...my heart's heavy now...I think i am sorry for him...I did not understand him well enough...it seems like my wrong now...but i tried very hard to understand him already...but...but...but y must i lost him now juz becoz of one folly act? y when one give so much cannot get back anithing??? I really don't wish to end everything...haiz...now i can onli hope he forgives mi is it so wrong to get to know a person??? Y things always turn bad to me in the end? New year is juz tomorrow.. i wish things can realli change...

I wish I wish...I wish for a good,happy and smooth year next year...